A giant scar

Towards the end of my pregnancy, I noticed that one of the moles on my left upper arm had become red and was bleeding. I knew that my history of sun exposure (with my fair skin) and lupus make me higher risk for skin cancer. So I saw the dermatologist who did a biopsy and it came back as a “Spitz Nevus with dysplasia”. I actually had to look this up, and it’s no wonder I didn’t remember- they are uncommon, about 1 in 100,000. They look very similar under the microscope to malignant melanoma (the bad kind of skin cancer that can be deadly). Even though a Spitz Nevus isn’t deadly, since they are so similar, they recommend that they are completely cut out.

When I went to the surgeon he told me I would end up with a scar, but I was completely unprepared for the size of the scar I have. Plus I was not prepared to have the “train tracks” aka “centipede legs” from the 8 stitches. It’s right on the front of my arm and VERY visible, especially in Southern California where people wear lots of sleeveless shirts.

I know it’s just a scar. And in the grand picture it doesn’t matter. In fact at this moment I couldn’t be more blessed! I have a perfect baby, my lupus is stable, and my husband is amazing…. But I’m still mourning my old arm and that this new look is now me.

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4 thoughts on “A giant scar

  1. Jeremy has a bad-ass scar from shoulder surgery at 15. I find it to be one of the most beautiful and unique parts of him. 😉

  2. You’re still a beautiful, strong and confident woman and I am so happy to know you! This scar is merely a a decorative stitch on the quilt of your life.

  3. So sorry you have to deal with this, but you could probably find the right color of
    makeup to make it almost disappear.
    Keep thinking of all your blessings!

  4. I’m so sorry, but certainly glad you had it taken care of. You have the right attitude, you can be sad for a little while and the scar will fade and you will be so busy with Baby……time my Dear will take care of it! Many Blessings to you and yours.

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